Juni-August 2002

This is ordinary

lyrics & music by Jessica Kutzscher

I keep hiding who I really am
‘cause I want you to like me, to be my friend
I don’t contradict, don’t disagree
‘cause I want everyone to be fond of me

I won’t say what I really think
‘cause you’d choose somebody else to be your friend
I tell you a lot of stories to impress you
‘cause being in your clique is so cool

Hey, this is ordinary – our daily lives
Tell me what is real and who’s honest
I keep flowing wherever they take me
Just to survive … I just don’t wanna be outside

I feel safe when I’m with you
‘cause you’re so popular – they wouldn’t harm you
I suck up to protect myself
Hey, it’s not that bad – I’m just like anyone else

I do what you want me to do
I am what you want me to be
If I showed my true self I guess, you’d avoid me
I say what you want me to say
I believe what you want me to believe
If I showed my true self I guess, you’d get me down
This is ordinary, this is ordinary